Making Web Series to overcome “the consciousness block”

My work in my newly started web series “Secret Portal” is more focused on creating awareness in people who don’t have the chance to travel the world, but who have the desire to see it from a different perspective and meaning. I try to bring meaning to traveling and meeting new people and seeing new places.

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Colombia, a secret heaven for those who have eyes to see and ears to hear!

I came to Colombia to continue my location scouting and script development of a feature film project that I was developing as I was traveling through South America for a year. In the mean time I finished one hybrid documentary “When the Ants Dream” (Cuando las Hormigas Sueñan) which I had ironically started filming during the manifestations back in Istanbul one and a half year ago under the trees of a park called “Gezi” in the city center to save it from having turned into a shopping mall and which had its world premier in a film festival in the Amazonas (Mica Film Festival/Manaus-Brazil)  in January 2015.  I also started with a new one in Chile and finished filming it in Colombia two months ago which is currently in the post-production.

Geysers in Alto Planos near San Pedro de Atacama, Chile

Geysers in Alto Planos near San Pedro de Atacama, Chile

After a month of traveling in the north coast of Colombia (Cartagena, Santa Martha, Parque Tayrona and Palomino) I came to Cali where I was suddenly welcomed with open arms by a short filmmaker friend, Oscar Hemberth Moreno, whom I had met one year ago in Rio de Janeiro while I was filming the Rio carnival for my previous hybrid feature “When the Ants Dream”.

The poster of my previous film

The poster of my previous film

 

He was a real kindred soul making 8 short films as he traveled South America on bicycle and was also visiting his family here after 2 years. He introduced me to some people from the film industry here and some of them were really helpful in helping me with my current feature film project “Love in Seven Letters”. One of them started translating and adapting my script to Colombia. Others came to help me filming a teaser for the project.

Still other new friends that I met through internet showed great interest in helping me with other needs of the production and offered their expertise and network of friends to even make more contacts for my next feature film project.

So, I then realized that I came to Colombia for a reason: it was my lost paradise now found! At the moment I am trying to set up a team and working program for the upcoming stages of the project and seek to meet new like-minded people to develop and realize this project with these new friends and for these new friends!

Horseback riding on the beach in Palomino/Colombia

Horseback riding on the beach in Palomino/Colombia

I think one finds his/her existence at the point where the mind of the Creator meets its function on earth. Our reason to exist is when the Light embraces your function while you find out your reason to live. I feel like I am falling to a new earth from a new sky and while my body boils into the texture of this new continent found, the hinterland of my existence comes forth to light. I become a new being by leaving behind my comfort zone and embrace infinity by overcoming my finite as I make an offering with my “self” to a higher cause: being “the other”!

Gezi Parkı’nda bir atölye olmak! – Yaşam Ağacı(2)

“40 gün beklemek” süreci algılamaktır.

Aksi takdirde karışık çoklukta toplumun söylencelerinden etkilenerek biz bir “altın buzağı” inşaa ediyoruz demektir. 40 günlük bu yükselişte yürekleri tamamıyla süreci kavramamış olan birçok kimse bizi etkileyen olacaktır. Asıl gerçeği kendi algımızda bir yapıyla değiştiriyoruz. En büyük kaybımız sabırsızlık. 40 gün bunun için önemli!

Bazen biz sadece kendi egomuzdan değiştiğimizi algılayabiliriz. Başbakanın “sizin için herşeyi yaptım, daha ne istiyorsunuz? Çok incindim” demesi gibi. Herkesin incittiği egolarınız, ama dostların incittiği sensin. Biz böyle samimi düşünenlere “egonu bırak, Sen de gel!” diyoruz.

Yeryüzü_sofrası

Aslında hepimiz “eh o kadarcık da olsun” diyoruz aslında da ondan kimse tam anlamıyla “gel”miyor. Tam resmi algılamamızı bekliyor henüz herkes.

Büyük resmi algılayamıyoruz, çünkü bize verilen ışığı kısıtlıyoruz. Bize verilen potansiyeli, ışığı bu tarzda bir yaklaşımla kısıtlayınca kendi “Teyyipler”imizi yaratıyoruz.

Aslında biz birşeyi anlamadığımız ve durdurduğumuz için dinler anlamanın üstüne çıkarlar ve bir kap oluştrmak isterler. Bu bazıları için “Teyyip’i seçmek” denen kavram.

Burda karşıt, Şeytan dediğimiz aslında ilerleyeni hedefler. O yüzden şu an ilerleyen bizler hedef tahtasındayız. Gezi ise uyanmış yüreğiniz, sizin yüreğinizin ışık alan tarafı, tohumlarınızın yeşermeye başlayan tarafı, şu an “burda” olamayanların görmek istemediği, ışık aldıkça yeşeren tarafımız.

“Ben buraya geldiğim zaman niye bu kadar seviniyorum?” Dediğiniz anda. “Tak!” ışıklar kesildi. “Ay herşey çok güzel gidiyor, aman başımıza birşey gelmesin”. Tak ışıklar yine gitti! Bu düşüncelerle kabımızı kısıtlama aslında bizim birçoğumuzun Gezi enerjisini tam alamamamızdan kaynaklanıyor. Biz burda bu kadar forum yapıyoruz, mana çalışıyoruz, fikir tartışıyoruz, dışarı çıkıyoruz yine aynı ben, yine aynı ben. Dindarların cennetiyle dinsizlerin cenneti arasında fark vardır. Neyi özlüyorsanız o sizin cennetinizdir. Gezi bizim özlediklerimizin cenneti. “Havuc”umuz yani! Varlık aleminde hep bir “havuç” peşinde koşuyoruz. “Havuç” çok önemli bir kavram. Havuç yoksa yaşamın anlamı yok! Başedemediğimiz dünya değil benliğimiz. Gerçek o kadar önemli değil, gerçek olarak bildiklerimiz önemli. Kendini kilitlemekten çıkanlar çöle çıkarlar. Çölde esas amacım havuca yaklaşmak esasında. Benden kurtulma gayreti beni insan yapan unsur. Çölde bunu deneyimliyoruz.

Gezi’nin kapısına kadar gelip içeri girip artık çadır kuramamızın sebebi ise benim daralttığım kab yüzünden. Arka planda daralttığım şeyler var o yüzden. Demek ki Gezi bazılarına  fazla geldi. Boğaz Köprülerini yürüyerek geçip, Toma sularını yarıp, gaz bulutlarını büküp de geliyoruz buraya kadar, ama dağ başında kalıyoruz. Hep birşeye ulaşma arzusu var, ama ulaşamama tatminsizliğimiz de var.

40 gün sonra şu an geldiğimiz dinginlikte bu doygunluk var. Burda bize verilen gerçek ışık mı değil mi, bunu zamanla farkedeceğiz. Böyle manaları çalıştıkça farkedeceğiz. Demek ki toplum bilinci beni kısıyor ya da açıyor. Demek ki hastalıklar da benim bilinç değişimimle bağlantılı. Demek ki bilinç yoksa değişim yok!

Biz al, al doymuyorduk. Sonunda “Durduran Adam”, “bizler gibi yapan adam” bizim öncümüz oldu! Şimdi “hiç olma sanatı”nı öğreniyoruz Duran Adam’la. Birşey olduğumda bütünde hiçsiniz, hiç olduğumuzda bütünde birşeysiniz. Bazı “kaygılı”ların, niye kaygılı olduklarını gayet iyi anlıyoruz şimdi.

İyileşme,

1)   Bilinçle bağlantılı. Aylarca yürüyüşler, eylemler yapıp bir bilinç oluşturmak çok önemli.

2)   İyileşme denge, sevinç, netlikle bağlantılı. Çünkü bir insanın yaşamında denge kapasitesi, üzüntülerin üstesinden gelebilecek bir kapasitesi yoksa, hasta olur. Saklıyorsanız içinizde ukte olan bir şeyi , o zaman ölüp gidersiniz. Bu forumlar, bu atölyeler bu uktelerimizi ortaya dökmek için.

3)   O zaman kökü bulmamız gerekiyor. Bu süreçte bizim toplumdaki bir sorunun kökünü bilip o sorunu kökünden kazımamız lazım.

Bu anlamda baktığınızda benim hava kaçıran noktamı bulmam çok önemli. Çoğumuz bunu örtüyoruz, kapıyoruz. Aslında Mardin’e gidiyoruz, aslında çöldeyiz, şikayet üzerine şikayet. Sonunda şikayet bize şikayetin önderini seçiyor ve yaşam tarafına geçemiyor ve orda da ölüyoruz. O kadar bilincimizi negatife eğiyoruz ki biz, bilincimizin arka planını ortadan kaldırıyoruz.

Hastalığın temeli net. Çünkü Gezi’nin ışığını sindiremedi bazıları. “Eyvah bu kadar bize yeter” dediğinizde, içinizde hastalıklara zemin hazırlıyorsunuz. Gün içinde gelen verilere dur dediğinizde, size verilen elektriği kaldıramıyorsunuz. Birilerinin Gezi olayları bir anda kendiliğinden başladığında “Bu kadar tesadüf üst üste olur mu?” dediklerinde, kendilerini bitirdikleri gibi. O başarıyı sindiremediğiniz için o başarı sizi bitiriyor. Verileni kaldıramadığınızda o durum sizde hastalık yaratıyor.

Bunu yapamam, bundan fazlasını kaldıramam, “satışlar durdu, piyasa çöktü eyvah” dediğinde, bittin. Daha bir ay önce sen bu sistemin kölesiydin. Burda her gün aynı parka geliyoruz ama, her gün bu parkı bambaşka görmeye başladık, di mi? Aynı gibi gözüken her yeni gün artık hiç eskisi gibi değil, di mi? Artık hiçbir gün bir öncekinin aynı değil, çünkü artık fiziğin üstüne çıktık, maddeye köle değiliz. Her gün yepyeni bir ruhla geliyoruz buraya.

Biz en ufak şeye “hayır “diyen kişileriz, ama 12 güneşini karşılayamıyoruz. Gezi öğlen 12 güneşidir. Gölgesiz netlik! Yunus’un dediği gibi “Bizi bilmeyen ne bilsin, bilenlere selam olsun”!

Aslında negatif dediğimiz şeyler negatif değil. Esas kızmanızın sebebi aklınızda başka yapılacak birşey olması. Aslında bu olan şeyler vakitsiz değil. İçimizde birçok küçük tilki var. Bunları konuşmadan dışarı çıkaramıyoruz. Arzularımın yürüyüşü bu. “Ben nasılsa tam olarak ne yapılması gerektiğini bilmiyorum, ben zaten herşeyi yapamam” diyoruz. “Bana sorucak şimdi “işin var mı, gücün var mı?” diye,” o yüzden ortalığa çıkmıyoruz. Bu yüzden gerçek “Gezi diyarı”na bir türlü geçemiyoruz.

İki hafta yatar, kimseyle konuşmak istemezsiniz, denge sisteminiz durur. Birşeylere sinirlendiğinizde, ben bana “veren” ışığı idare edememeye başladım demektir. Işıkta denge varsa, bir ölümlü insandan niye öç alıyım? Mutfakta yumurtalığı da, düdüklüyü de kullanıyourm. O zaman yumurta kabı neden aşağılasın kendini?

“Biz neden bir ekip olarak bir iş ortaya çıkaramıyoruz?”, ya da diğerinin dediği gibi “Vay bana niye yan bakıldı?” dediğiniz anda, bu sindirmeye çalışmaktır, o zaman kap küçülür. Gezi ruhu gider, hayatıma yine Teyyipler gelir. Yani dağları deviren, birden bire çadırcı Mehmet’le yer değiştirir. Biz hastalıklarda yaşam ağacı kabını kullanmak yerine, akıl ağacını kullanıyoruz. Oysa yaşam ağacı bizi harekete geçiren bir vizyondur. Ucundan azıcık yapsam bile, birşeydir. Bazen hastalıkları kullanıırız. Kendimizi madur zihniyetinde biz otomatik olarak, kendi kendimize kazazede süsü vererek “sigortadan para almaya” bakarız yani. Cep telefonlarınızla bir bütünsünüz. “Bu benim telefonum” diyorsunuz. Peki “bugün” senin mi?

Kapları biz seçiyoruz. %80’ini biz seçiyoruz. %20 Yoğurtçu Parkı’nda açtığın bir atölyeye katılanların kim olabileceğini bilememe fonksiyonu. 🙂 Orda bazıları “öğlen 12 güneşi”nde yemek yemek istemez, mesela. Biz koyuyoruz bu isimleri, varlığımızda kabı daralttığımız her anda stresi biz oluşturuyoruz. Az istiyoruz maalesef. Azı istemek bazen uzun yolu seçmektir. Onlar az istediler, az oldu. Aslında ışığı biz kapatıyoruz.

Araba istiyorum ama “arabam olmaz” diyorsunuz içinizden. Dillendirmenize bile gerek yok. Senin içindeki sistem o kadar ters ve negatif ve gıcksın ki kendine, araban olmuyor! O zaman yapacağım şey mümkün mertebe ışıkları kapatmamak. O kadar korku içinde yaşıyorum ki, oysa korkuları devirdiğim anda başka bir dünyayla, Gezi Parkı’yla karşılaşıyorum. Bunu yaparken bir çoğaltma mı yaratıyoruz hayatımızda, yoksa azaltma mı? Istemenin mantığı yoktur. Gezi diyarında yaşamak istiyorsak, mükemmel olan, boyunduruksuz hiçbir bağı bulunmayan, suçlanmayan bir “kırmızı ineği” keseceğiz! Öyle bir inek yok aslında, ama onu bulun ve kesin diyoruz şu an birbirimize.

“Orda” kalmak için kimsenin aklına gelmeyen eylemler yapıyoruz sürekli, her gün bütüncül enerji dediğimiz enerjiyle bağ kurmak için “kırmızı inek” kesme çabasındayız. Mükemmeli arıyoruz, ama asla bulamıyoruz. Bu işi hakkıyla yapabilmemiz için de böyle olması lazım, zira bu edinimi farkedip etkilerden kurtulmak asıl özgürlüktür. Boyunduruktan kurtulmak demek bu etkileşim, kimseyi suçlamadığımız için suçlanmayacağımız, hiçliği aradığımız, iyi olan şeyi alıp, kötü olan şeyi attığımız şeyi yapıyoruz biz burda. Etkilenmemek bu: içsel alemde görünmeyeni içe almak. Biz aslında bunları yaparken öyle bir farkındalık oluşturuyoruz ki şu an, ışık bizde işliyor ve bütün dünyayı kapsayan bir gerçekliği ifade ediyoruz bu küçük dünyamızda!

Her gün yemek yiyoruz. Önemli olan tekrarlarımızın ne yaptığı. Yediğimiz şeyleri nasıl değerlendiriyoruz? Ailem, ilişkilerim, dinim vs. Bir bakın, neye, ne kadar çok değer veriyorsunuz! Kapasiteniz olmadan yemeyin herşeyi! Demek ki alma arzumuzda bir tıkanma var. Biz aslında kolay kolay değişemiyoruz, ama değişmeyi birden bire istiyoruz. Bizim değişmeme sebebimiz burası değil, biziz. Bizim oluşturduğumuz yemin. “Ben bunu yapamam, ben bunu yaparım. Bu adamla asla konuşmam” diyorsunuz. Ama yürüyüşte yanınıza öyle biri geliyor ki, sizin o güne kadar yanyana gelmeyi en son düşündüğünüz kimse. Ve o kişi sizi belki o gün bir polis kıskacından kurtaran kişi oluyor. O zaman iyi olmak için iyi olmayı bir kenara bırakıyorsunuz, çünkü zaten bu dinlerin “iyi”si, ve gerçek insan olmayı dünyaya anlatmış oluyorsunuz. Çöl hayatı senin senle çeliştiğin hayat. Sen başkasıyla hırlaşırken kendinle hırlaşıyorsun aslında. Ama Gezi Parkı’na ulaşmaya çalışırken bu çöl yürüyüşünde bu çelişkilerini bırakmayı öğreniyorsun!

Çalışan var metin yok, grup var, rehber yok. Balans yoksa, uymuyor sisteme. Acaba çokluk muyuz, yoksa gerçek kurtuluşa yürüyenler miyiz? Gezi froumlarına gelenlerin çoğu çokluk, acıların çocukları, acılar yolunun yolcuları. Bu da bir nevi dincilik! Siz de seküler dinciler olabilirsiniz, bir tartın konuşmalarınızı.

Şimdi bütün bunlardan sonra toplanın ve yüreğinizde olumlu olan herşeye – iyi ve kötünün sizdeki karşılama modeline, metoduna –  yer açın! Yer açmak demek, çoklukların bana söylediklerine göre yapmıyorum demek! Bu 40 günde biz bunu yaptık burda, bazı şeyleri bıraktık ve bazılarına yer açtık. Kendi kendine bırakamazsın, sistemin nasıl işlediğini öğrenmen lazım. Biz bu süreçte bunu öğrendik. Kötüyü kötü, iyiyi iyi olarak değerlendirdim şahsen. Şehitler verildi, yaralananlar oldu, tutuklananlar, göz altına alınanlar oldu. Kötü oldu diyorum, ama bu yüzden depresyona girmiyorum, yer açıyorum. Yaşadığınız herşey sorunlu birşey içinde kanal olabilmeniz için. Bütün manevi hazırlık deprem anı için. Binalar niye yıkılıp, yapılıyor. Deprem anı için.

Birinci yer açma, “yer açma” değil. Esas önemli olan ikinci perdeye kimler kalacak!? “Yer açma”da “herkes veriyor, ben de veriyim” konsepti yok! Show yapma yer açmak değil! Birilerine zaman ayırmıyorsanız, dilediğiniz kadar forumlarda konuşun! Karışık çokluk sizinle yürüyormuş gibi yapar, ama yarı yoldan saparlar. Ayağa kalkmak sana kalmış birşey. Sistem yeryüzü sofrasını kuruyor sana.!

Ruhsal çadır için, bir mana, bir atölye grubuyla vermek ve almak gibi bir ilişkide olman lazım. Bu kainat titreşimi yoksa, sertleşiyoruz çünkü. Bilgiler bile öğrenilirken üstüste binerler, kalan bir özettir. Bu 40 günde o kadar çok şey oldu ki, bilgisayarımda masaüstünde yer kalmadı. Ama bu bilgi pratiğe inmiyorsa mimar değilsiniz. Eğer karışık çokluk birşey inşaa ediyorsa, o şey batar. Benim sana ihtiyacım var, sen başkasına gidiyorsun. Senin bana ihtiyacım var, ben başka işlerle meşgulüm. Biz aynı şeyler içinde bocalıyorsak, biz karışık çokluğu dinliyoruz demektir. Bu ölüm meleği ordadır demektir. Şimdi gönülden verenler gelsin dediğimiz, çokluğun ayrıldığı, susamış olanlar gelsin dediğimiz bu dostlar meclisinde yanyana gelince, kenosis yaparak, yani hepimizin boşaltmaya ihtiyacımız var, bunu yaparak gördüğümüz o dünyayı birbirimize tarif etme zamanı! İyi direnişler!

Plot Progression Chart for my next road movie is ready!

Aside

So the next and last film on the “Zahiristan-bul” trilogy series will be about one continous love story shot in different places and with differing cast in a world of Dante somewhere in and around Italy. I seek to depict in each film a different part of the Greater Mediterranean. The first two films were about the two extremities of the Mediterranean basin. My hometown Istanbul and some parts of Spain (Andalucia and Barcelona) and sailing the Mediterranean southwest of France.

I believe that by design cinema has a lot to offer in understanding the “other” by evoking our emotions which no other art form can really achieve to this extent. Therefore I want to utilize this medium in re-constructing a new world view where a new form of sensing life is at utmost need in today’s world of collapsing economies and old-fashioned ways of doing things. A new renaissance is at the door!

I am currently making my travel and shooting schedule for 2013 for this new project. As I shot the part taking place in Barcelona of my latest film “The Grenadines Road” where my local hosts were mostly Italians, I want to shoot the last film to this trilogy now in the “Land of Dante”.

I like to work in creative environments surrounded with visionary people who seek to come together and join forces with one single aim to break free from our perceived boundaries of the world as we know it and share this unique vision with similar visionary people to make the light bigger and bigger every day.

I like to develop certain templates that naturally come out in my journeys as to discover and illustrate them at my next port of call. By doing so I feel that my journeys reach the highest level of my understanding of freedom. Including varying cultures and ways of seeing things allows us to create a holistic view of an otherwise dying world view. If our shortsighted eye  is not fed and even healed at times with different perspectives and points of view to the same subject, then it’s not a living organism anymore actually.

Coming from a city like Istanbul where you can get sunsets with differing sensations every time you look at the same vista of the other side (be it arriving there from Europe, or Asia) depending on your gained new perspective of that “other side” on your way home. I want to create the same sensation with an amalgamate of perspectives at one single story form that I created with other two fellow travellers who experienced a life changing phenomenon in their daily lives here in Istanbul which I also experienced during the first film of this trilogy in this city of no ends. I think transmitting this euphoric experience of being born in Istanbul has a lot to offer to humanity in days like this coming to the closure of an age and beginning of a new one.

Therefore I intend to shoot one part of this free-roving trilogy fusion feature film project series again in collaboration with local artists and travelers the same way I did in Spain last year, but this time I have a complete new story form consisting of 4 Signposts and 3 Journeys of whose shoot I plan to make within a time span of 8 months through various parts of this visionary world.

Here is the road map for my next feature! Let's see where I am going to shoot with whom this time!

In this way, I want to map out a spiritual road the same way I did with Cervantes’ Don Quixote’s trail back in Spain and to Yunus (a Turkish poet and mystic).

Director’s Statement on “The Grenadines Road”

Aside

The Grenadines Road” is a movie that emerged out of the need for contact with people whose language I was not able to speak, but who were speaking to me in my dreams.

It’s a story of some stranded travelers in Spain all seeking for and starting a new life as they meet a resurrected torero somewhere on the road to getting “there”.

 

At Don Quixote's windmills on the road to Playa de los Muertes

Me at Don Quixote’s windmills on the road to Playa de los Muertes

The movie is structured in multiple chapters depicting the metaphoric voyage of the travelers. In one chapter, an urban monk who is hosting couchsurfers shows them the way to get on the road via the symbolic burial of a dragonfly into the sea.

Dragonfly

Two dragonflies came my way as I found them lying on the ground dead&dried just in front of me. Once in Istanbul and once in South of France. Then I realized that I had to make a film about this beauty!

In another, the director is climbing Mount Montserrat with a Spanish fireman in search for truths one finds once on top of the mountain. In another, a torero dies like a bull with three spears in his back and is resurrected on Good Friday in search for a new life.

touch&change

We shot this scene while there was general strike in Granada. Noone cared about a torero walking around with three spears in his back and touching the poster about his own death!

All these little stories, fiction or non-fiction, have a similar theme: we all are seeking true love but the road to get there is inevitably blocked by our inability to see the big picture.

I wanted to discover those aspects, which are actually hidden within the discoveries that we think we’ve already discovered. I wanted to give back what life offered me as default in this great big hometown of mine in an abundance of many facets of lives originating from somewhere around the globe and which were so thickly condensed in one single spot, Istanbul, which I had to find again in meaning, in order to make it really mine.

After all, leaving Istanbul is so difficult; if one fails once given the chance to break through the walls of illusion, this greatest hologram in the world imprisons one into.

Cinema was the only answer. So I traveled to Spain, a country where, as the legend goes, was home of a man of noble birth who went to a distant country to have himself appointed king and then to return.

The home of Don Quixote, the man who took the responsibility of making the truths of the ancient legends his own, which he read and read before he got on the road. He was missing one thing though: he couldn’t touch and bring about change and healing to the people he met on that road.

frame from the film

frame from the film

This is to say, I shot this film to bring about a healing on our perception of the world so that it brings a forward momentum from where we are stuck now as being alienated as “the other.”

The road is the best place where you meet “the others” apart from the crowds of mixed multitudes. This film is an answer to this need of ages old missing contact of these both ends of the Mediterranean.

We are living in a greater Mediterranean Sea that contains the miracle of grand perspective, if you can draw a thorough-line between the stories from both extremities of it. To find that hidden road was my challenge.

Being from Istanbul gives one the privilege of existing as a citizen of the world beyond your ethnicity and your cultural boundaries and forces you to take on the responsibility of being born into this inter-zone.

This heritage requires a full devotion and determination of applying this inborn out worldly nature to your daily life. Thus once you fulfill the dreams you dream in Istanbul, you may find yourself in quite a different place like Spain or anywhere else in the world depending on your interpretation of it. No wonder that Napoleon once said: “If the world was one nation, Istanbul would be its capital!”

Being an Istanbulite is very much like being a constant traveler but without having to cover long distances across the globe. Why is that? Because it is the only city in the world which sits on two continents and on two realities. Thus, to be born there and live there is to have an inborn sensation of what it is to sit next to infinity, which is also found within yourself. It is to look out at a whole new continent across the Bosporus day in and day out and even to traverse back and forth over the borders of your perceived reality. Thus, I am constantly on the road with my films, leaving one reality behind and stepping into another unknown one as I start thinking about what to shoot next. So I am living in a constant Diaspora in this world even in my own hometown! Literally Istanbul belongs nowhere but the heavens. It’s a world apart!

My last trip was in and around Spain where I wanted to make friends with the characters I had previously written in Istanbul which would appear in my upcoming feature film script. I also wanted to gain new perspectives about them and to meet his potential co-filmmakers and future actors on the road. Soon I realized that this recherché/field trip was going to take longer than I initially planned. So I changed the direction and decided to start a new project while traveling with friends I had recently met along the road. As I got to know my protagonist more, I decided to shoot a musical road movie. Thus it turned into a Cloud Atlas-eque feature length musical road movie in the end.

This scene I shot impromtu in the Barcelona zoo. The kids were ready to act anyway before I said "action"!

This scene I shot impromtu in the Barcelona zoo. The kids were ready to act anyway before I said “action”!

Direct Cinema is where you break the ice!

Aside

This blog is a diary about the constant daily miracles which make my films possible!

By miracles I mean the things we don’t usually comprehend during our daily rush of things that we have to carry on with, or the things which happen to us, but due to our short-sight or incapacity of adapting their interpretations to our daily lives they usually lose their effect of immediate impact to our surroundings. Thus we end up living a meaningless life as we take as a given that we are.

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My last crew&cast during a shoot in Granada/Spain. From left to right: Teresa Herrera, Jesus Gonzalez, Bozkurt Palanduz (me), Frank Müller, Stelviyo Attanasi, Judit Saavedra Micolo, Tamara Garcia

I am a seasoned filmmaker with 20 years of experience. I make films starting with my thesis project about alienated people in their homelands. The ones who were unable to find meaning of their life as being the microcosmic example of almost the whole humankind living on this planet without deliberating upon why! You need to shake off the old ways of thinking that are holding you back. Once you realize you can do things in an entirely new way, you can re-write the rulebook. Find ways you are stuck in mental ruts and give them the boot.

This blog is therefore there to unravel the invisible, the abstract within the visible. And today’s internet represents very well the ether which is not visible but which has become a certain vehicle to find out about how we can escape our mundane daily lives strictly stuck in the flesh, doesn’t’ it!

taken as the gypsies visiting the town by the passers-by and posing for the tourists

taken as the gypsies visiting the town in the other side of the French riviera, Saint Marries de la Mer and posing for the tourists with tambourine artist Alessandra Belloni

By definition, films are made as long as the relationships allow them. And the relationship I am talking about here is our relationship with the ether from where we actually get the ideas and new point of views through metaphors. They exist between ordinary events showing us the interconnectedness of all the things around us.

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When we were not allowed into the bullfight arena in Granada, I had to shoot the whole scene impromptu and from scratch. I wrote and set up the mis-en-scene in 10 minutes before the sun disappeared in between the buildings in the background. That day was the final day of the shoot, then I became a superman! 🙂

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That’s why the things that I am going to share here are the mere interpretations of “the things” or “events” which may seem ordinary or not so out of the box at first sight, as the people around you try to make you believe that they are meaningless, but if you look at them from the viewpoint of the “eternal now,” they have quite different implications in the context of pre-eternity and eternity condensed to “now”! That’s where the eye-opener films come into the picture made by those few people on earth who happen to seek only these hidden links that we all actually have to look for in the first place.

For this reason I am even making this blog in English which is not my mother tongue and which may sound a bit awkward at times but which is I think how that person would talk to you whom you may also meet some day on a distant shore somewhere on the ocean side of a far continent, wouldn’t he/she? And the other reason I make this way is: if you believe that there is another reality beyond what we are born into, then English as a second language comes in handy I think to just start a dialogue! I am not going to bug you my crippling Spanish or out of practice German for the sake of my first post for now! 🙂

This scene we shot on a mount in Granada where there is this wall with a corridor in it and at dawn the light shines through he holes in the wall. That was a perfect start for the shoot!

This scene we shot on a mount in Granada where there is this wall with a corridor in it and at dawn the light shines through the holes in the wall. That was a perfect start for the shoot!

You may be a novice filmmaker and want to develop your filmmaking skills with hands-on experience on filmmaking starting from conceptualizing to the final shoot and editing, and even beyond all the way down to its gala, or you may also be a talented actor who wants to make a bold start with an off-the-beaten path film project in the international avant-garde film festival circles, then this blog is for you. Once it’s released,  get to see also “The Grenadines Road”, http://www.imdb.com/title/tt2723318/ my latest feature which has come out in the same vein. https://www.facebook.com/landofgrenadines

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In my last project I was able to balance the density of wisdom of my hometown Istanbul (an amalgamate of a myriad of ancient cities one on top of each other, namely Byzantine, Konstantinopolis and Chalcedony – the so-called “Land of the Blind”) where you as a visionary filmmaker literally have no place to speak this knowledge out but your films or scripts, as it is the end of one world and yet the beginning of another, namely it’s just a bridge to pass you onto the other side. A bridge between our 5 senses and what’s beyond them, the sixth sense which doesn’t exist on this world, but it still does have its effects on this one! In getting into contact with the wholeness this city offers with its geographical location and history, you have to find out on your own what doesn’t exist yet there, namely “the hidden city within” or “the hidden self with us” so to speak.

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There is this statue in Barcelona where they lit it in order to have a shadow at the building overlooking the square. The people living in that house must be chosen people! 🙂

When you cross the Bosporus, you start internalizing those notions which you only heard about up until then and start creating something beyond the material when you reach the other side. This transformation of ideas and the self can work both ways, from East to West or from West to East.

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This the bridge in Barceloneta where you pass over a highway on the seaside to go to the Ikaria Beach

There you leave behind what was taught to you up until then, you become the coach of yourself. There you no longer need to take things for the self, there you take on the responsibility to act now as the bridge between these two worlds. There you suddenly disappear from one world by attaining the consciousness of logos that is to say that you become one with the whole universe and create a hook between the two ends of the world – the known and the unknown – which as a result empowers you to turn evil into good and the curse into blessing.

At that stage you start hearing a new call. A stage where no one really touches you anymore in a sense to hinder you from doing things. There you become untouchable. You actually pass beyond the limitations of cultures and nostalgia and heresy. Taking on the responsibility of studying the meaning of this road, you are also facing off the death&resurrection, taking this wisdom into your lives where you don’t need to prove your love of a certain kind of fish, for example, to anyone. The spiritual things have no way of proving them right.

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You have passed the stage then of doing things just to show off. Like cleaning up some space just to satisfy our need to pretend as a clean person, whereas our inner self might be full of corruption, for instance. No, you don’t want to do that once you are out there in direct contact with the universe. You don’t do things there so that some people give you the paradise beyond your perception of some beliefs or ways of doing things right. There is no right or wrong there. There is just you who has become one with the universe! As the saying goes “you either become part of the universe or part of others’ herd.”

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The demonstrations in September 2011 in Barcelona

I don’t want to state that the light of the world is where I come from or where I am planning to travel next and I am just hanging out in those places to mix in with the vibe, no! Just in contrary, I want to protect my light as I sustain my mobility as a visionary according to where I deem most necessary to strike a balance with what I have found out lately and to meet those people who see this light in a way that they see the connections and are capable of drawing lines between the dots in that vast space of darkness in between them. There are less and less people out there who can draw or willing to draw these lines, as the connections which allow these lines to be drawn get more fainted every day in a decaying world where everything is instantly converted to a high degree of materialism.

My last trip was to Spain where I spent 9 months to map out the extent of the Greater Mediterranean for my upcoming film project “El Cosmico.” As I said before I am a filmmaker from Istanbul, the city where you can find all the answers to all your questions you wondered about all your life, but you can’t bring them to full fruition there. It’s a city which both sets you free from your bonds and also sends you away to your own journey. When you discover Istanbul, you most likely find yourself in some quite other place then you were before both mentally and physically.

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This is a blog that I am making to find kindred spirits who may be like me stuck somewhere around the world and looking for a way to unleash their ties from their past and break free, but don’t know how. I offer my expertise of filmmaking with over 20 years of experience in the industry, if you really want to become a genuine person which is something else than what the world teaches us to become one, you know. You may find it somewhere in Spain or on a boat on a multi-year journey across the oceans or even sitting in your cubicle stuck in a mega city or a little town where you may even become a traveller of time and space without even moving anywhere.

I have been making films mostly with people who haven’t been all necessarily in the industry for career-sake, but I rather enjoyed doing these films by reforming the blueprint of making cinema as there are so many places about which no films are made yet to reform our ideas about filmmaking  with the indigenous people there. Istanbul being just one of them which I am still finding out.

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I mostly travel with the characters I write for long periods of time until I define them completely.  There has been times that I decided not to make a film about them once I reached the core of the characters I wrote and shot through some short films fiction or non-fiction which usually come out as a video diary of sorts during theses journeys –  that I shoot while I am traveling with them in spirit of the characters during recherche.

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Don’t just ask ‘So, what do you do?’ Instead, go for something far more revealing. You could meet people who share your point of view in some really amazing ways somewhere in the world now and the internet might be just the beginning of that great journey — but you’ve got to ask all the right questions. And I ask you now, “you say I don’t like tea in the breakfast, I want coffee, but why would you make then movies in the same manner wherever you go in he world. Break through your own habits of doing things and enjoy the abundance of life and make real heartfelt contacts with people who are most likely passively looking for someone to change their habit of looking at things surrounding them from a finite viewpoint, thus creating more and more of a crust around them.

How about creating a completely new genre of cinema and breaking through these shells which are all made due to our own lack of practicing the way of meaning and due to our own way of seeing the whole creation as a system that punishes people where there are illusionary limits to doing things. Could that be your own lack of making these necessary contacts with the right people? And as a result of this you may be creating these limits that you set upon yourself. You can be totally lost in your own head and still have a productive day, when you are on the road. And if you are on a shoot there, imagining your next move could be one of your hidden talents. Go ahead, string fantasy and reality together into a silky braid. Your instincts will lead you to like-minded people, when you are out there. Go wherever your gut tells you to go. Fun people will be waiting there for you. Besides being able to predict how people are all going to react to you, your instincts will tell you how to prevent anything bad from hurting the people you love. This will be a time of great connectedness between you and the people you care. Get on your own Grenadines road!

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